Have you ever been so excited that your mind keeps speeding like an express train on the same track? That's how I am right now. I can't think straight. My mind has been derailed or actually it's running on a single set of tracks. I'm going on holiday to the most beautiful place and I just can't wait. I can't even sleep properly because I'm so goddam excited. I am so full of nervous, anticipatory energy I can't sit still! It's nice but it's weird too. I can't think of anything else. Have you ever wanted something so badly that when you actually get it you go into shock. My senses have shut down! System overload! I so happy! The worst has reaped the best! Ever the optimist...it works wonders....atleast for me! When I give up hope. When I can see the end of the road and am ready to backtrack, the light breaks through! Fuck...I can't see!