It's been ages since I have written anything. Life has been so overwhelming that all my senses just shutdown. I am not committed to anything but one thing that always gets my full attention are good books. Of late, I have not been able to finish a single book. I tried long books, short books, fiction, non-fiction, I tried it all and was heartbroken. My one passion was dampened. Thank god I have got back my spark. I have always believed in God and been grateful but this time I owe him my sanity. I could not read, sleep, lost my appetite, I was a shadow of myself but then I decided to well and truly let go and now I'm a different person, a better person. I have always decided to let go but kept a plan B, a life-raft and that was my problem. This time as I had nothing to lose and nothing mattered to me anymore, I just let go. What an experience. I feel so light inside. Nothing affects me. My calm is permanent. Love, joy and peace are my new keywords. I have realised the meaning of grace and am basking in it. He died for my sins and his blood sets me free. I did nothing to earn his love. He loves me because I am his and am created in his image. I have stopped trying to be perfect because I don't need to be. I am not called to be perfect. I am called to love him. God is love and is there to take your hand...only if you let him